Career fair woes

I wish I had a picture to show how inefficient this career fair was at PNC Arena in Raleigh. I paid over $30 to attend this career fair but the lines were so long that I could hardly talk to anyone. I’m really disappointed in the whole experience and want to demand a refund like a boss. I gave out three resumes to Charlotte Checkers, Carolina Hurricanes, and Rams Club. I will have to send follow-up emails later but I’m way too lazy to do that right now. They were mostly recruiting inside sales, which is not exactly what I want to do at this point in my life. Good thing I have other interviews in the week.

Toxic people

I’m about to go on a rant. I created this blog as a creative outlet but now I have to use it to rant. After you graduate from college, you lose your social circle. I went home and regret that a lot, but I don’t have a real job right now and there’s nowhere else that I can go. However, I know so many people that don’t meet my standards. I have no choice but to cut them all out. I really can’t stand dumb people or uneducated people and I have no respect for people who get DUIs and act irresponsibly. I also can’t stand people who have sex irresponsibly. I wish there was a way to prevent them from doing that and I’m not talking about high school kids. I’m talking about people in their 20s who aren’t ready to have children yet take absolutely no precaution to prevent pregnancy. I am actually pro-choice but I know I don’t want kids so I take birth control pills. I think it’s pure stupidity for guys and women to be finishing inside a girl when they both know they don’t want kids. If you know you don’t want kids, then prevent them. Don’t just have an abortion because you’re irresponsible. It’s quite despicable in my opinion. And for all the people who don’t like the pill, that’s not an excuse. There are other methods of contraception like condoms or an IUD.

Aside from these people being uneducated and irresponsible, they have caused a lot of unnecessary drama in my life. I don’t have time for it. I am constantly trying to better myself and will not let anyone stand in my way of achieving my goals. I would rather be alone than deal with these toxic sorts of people. If people aren’t meeting your standards, then respect yourself enough to walk away from them. After all, you’re only the average of the five people you spend the most time with. For me, that means cutting out everyone that I know right now. I am going to networking events trying to meet professional people who have a career and education. I am not looking for idiots with DUI who steal from grocery stores and have no morals.

Winter blues

I wake up to sleet outside. Honestly, this is getting old. I live for the sun and nothing else. This stupid weather makes me want to stay in bed all day. It is what I do in this weather. I’m underemployed even though I was educated at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill. I find myself binge watching DCC Making the Team and I idolize those girls. I wish I could dance like them. Every single day the sky is white here. Seriously need to blast some Bob Marley and transport myself to a beach.

Hopeless relationships

I’ve never gotten along with my mother and I probably never will. Most people in the world never change and the only way that I could imagine ever getting along with her is if she changed. But I know she won’t. She’s so stuck in her ways. She constantly criticizes everything about me from my eyebrows to my body weight. Every single day I have to listen to her belittle me and tell me that I hold myself back. No one ever wants to hear those things. I am a UNC alum. I’m obviously not some worthless piece of shit but that’s how she makes me feel. I don’t want to live my life for anyone else. Only me. And life is too short to be unhappy but as long as my blood always criticizes me, I don’t know a way to be happy.